Misery loves company

This list is from http://www.realmentalhealth.com/bipolar/bipolar_celebs.asp?gclid=CLGdt_fn2JkCFQgNDQodozujXA

Here is a list of famous people or celebs with bipolar disorder.

  • Buzz Aldrin (astronaut)
  • Adam Ant (musician)
  • Ludwig van Beethoven (composer)
  • Napoleon Bonaparte (political leader)
  • Tim Burton (artist, director)
  • Lord Byron (poet)
  • Dick Cavett (television journalist)
  • Winston Churchill (politician)
  • Charles Dickens (author)
  • DMX, Dark Man X (Earl Simmons) (musician, actor)
  • Robert Downey Jr. (actor)
  • Richardy Dreyfuss (actor)
  • Patty Duke (actress)
  • Ralph Waldo Emerson (author)
  • Emily Epler (poet, actress)
  • Carrie Fisher (Actress, writer)
  • Larry Flynt (publisher, activist)
  • Francis Scott Key Fitzgerald (Writer)
  • Connie Francis (singer)
  • Stephen Fry (actor, comedian writer)
  • Peter Gabriel (musician)
  • Alan Garner (novelist)
  • Matthew Good (musician)
  • Philip Graham (publisher, businessman)
  • Macy Gray (musician, actor)
  • Graham Greene (English Novelist)
  • Ivor Gurney (English composer, poet)
  • Alexander Hamilton (politican)
  • Linda Hamilton (actress)
  • Mariette Hartley (actress)
  • Jimi Hendrix (musician)
  • Ernest Hemingway (writer)
  • Hermann Hesse (writer)
  • Abbie Hoffman (political activist)
  • Kay Redfield Jamison (clinical psychologist)
  • Daniel Johnston (musician)
  • Chris Kanyon (wrestler)
  • John Keats (poet)
  • Rep Patrick J. Kennedy (politician)
  • Otto Klemperer (conductor)
  • Margot Kidder (actress)
  • Patrick Kroupa (writer, hacker)
  • Haydn Ledger (Heath Ledger’s Uncle)
  • Vivien Leigh (actress)
  • Jennifer Lewis (actress)
  • Abraham Lincoln (president)
  • Tina Malone (actress)
  • James Marzilli (senator)
  • Kristy McNicol (actress)
  • Kate Millett (author)
  • Spike Milligan (comedian, writer)
  • Ben Moody (musician)
  • John A. Mulheren (businessman, philanthropist)
  • Edvard Munch (artist)
  • Isaac Newston (scientist, mathematician)
  • Florence Nightingale (nurse)
  • Snéad O’Connor (musician)
  • Susan M. Olmetti (artist)
  • Ozzy Osbourne (singer)
  • Cheri Oteri (actress)
  • Jane Pauley (TV Journalist)
  • Jimmy Piersail (baseball player)
  • Jaco Pastorius (musician)
  • Edgar Allan Poe (poet, writer)
  • Charlie Pride (musician)
  • Emil Post (mathematician)
  • Barret Robbins (NFL football player)
  • Clark Rockefeller (socialite, alleged criminal)
  • Axl Rose (singer)
  • Theodore Roosevelt (President)
  • Cynthia M. Sabotka (author)
  • Robert Schumann (composer)
  • Frank Sinatra (actor)*
  • Nina Simone (singer)
  • Britney Spears (musician)
  • Michael Spensieri (lawyer, politician)
  • Robert Louis Stevenson (author)
  • Ben Stiller (actor)
  • Sidney Sheldon (producer, writer)
  • Percy Bysshe Shelley (poet)
  • Darryl Strawberry (baseball player)
  • Sting (Gordon Sumner) (actor, musician)
  • David Strickland (actor)
  • Sara Teasdale (poet)
  • Devin Towsend (musician)
  • Nick Traina (singer)
  • Timothy Treadwell (environmentalist)
  • Margaret Trudeau (former spouse of politician)
  • Ted Turner (businessman)
  • Mark Twain (author)
  • Jean-Claude Vn Damme (actor)
  • Vincent Van Gogh (artist)
  • Kurt Vonnegut (author)
  • Pete Wentz (muscian)
  • Scott Weiland (musician)
  • Oscar Wilde (poet)
  • Robin Williams (actor)
  • Brian Wilson (musician)
  • Virginia Woolf (poet, novelist

References Bipolar Disorder Today
Wikipedia
Other Internet sites
IMDB.com

So I have not posted in a long time.  Truth is, I was just that busy.  Although my therapist thinks that being in a constant state of “too busy” helps to keep me distracted from the anxiety I feel when things are actually quiet in my world.  Quiet time is tough because it gives my mind room to spin up.  I posted this list because it reminds me that I am not alone.  Well, I am actually quite alone…but this list is interesting.  I wonder why Heath Ledger’s uncle made the list, what is that all about?  Are they suggesting something there?  Okay, quick side note, what is the deal with the stupid monotone Comcast commercials that are always on TV?  One just popped up and I hate them.  Having once worked in commercial post-production I can’t even begin to imagine what torture that must have been to edit that.  Another thing, as SNL is on right now, how did Seth Rogan get so skinny?  I Googled it and was shocked that he claims that he isn’t trying to do a diet.  I wish it was even half that easy for me.  I really need to turn off the TV and read something intelligent.  SNL is painful tonight.  I used to love the show – especially in the 90’s.  Tonight’s has been lackluster at best.

So let me recapture the health issue.  I suffered vertigo really badly at the beginning of 2009.  I was out of work and sicker than I’ve been in a long, long time.  I threw up for two days and was taking anti-vertigo and anti-nausea meds for two weeks.  After that I had to play catch up at work and sweat the cuts that were made.  I survived!

This is a couple of days later now.  I’m enjoying some down time, but it is only limited.  I’ve found that I’m not good at having down time as I’ll either begin to do some project compulsively and/or sleep like it is my job.  This week, so far, I’ve done both.  Monday I was so out of it that when I woke up from a nap I couldn’t even move.  It was like I was paralyzed.  I need to get back on my thyroid medicine as I’m sure that is part of it.  The money has been tight and I’m not able to afford that prescription.  Also, I’ve been spring cleaning like crazy.  I’ve only finished the upstairs, but that took me awhile.  Now I’m just draggin from three hour long practices and extra time grading – god, I’ll never catch up with the grading.  I’m also slightly annoyed with a guy….oh, yes, there is that too.

I think that I can make a fair assesment that he was genuinely intrigued after catching up on the phone.  I laughed and was interested.  So I sent an email, per his request.  He doesn’t address anything that I wrote about, he doesn’t call, and he sends some terse email that is completely impersonal. Okay?  This is a guy that I would have wanted to try and have some sort of a relationship with…but, now??  Is it too selfish of me to think that?  Now I don’t even know how to tame the disappointment I have since he seems to have basically rejected me pre-emptively.  Whatever…it just sucks because he is/was cool – until something spooked him.  Is it this???  Is my mental stuff coming across yet again?

I read an article that Sylvia Plath’s son committed suicide.  Wow, that is sad.  http://bipolar.about.com/b/2009/03/23/son-of-sylvia-plath-commits-suicide.htm (that is the link to the article).  Here is the thing: my dad’s friend has a daughter who was REALLY bi-polar and not the II version…the real deal.  She is only a year younger than me and happily married with two kids, a house, and the life that I whine about not having.  Somewhere along the way her husband said, “ok, I know she has mental issues, but I love her and that is what matters,” or something along those lines.  I don’t think that there is any guy who will take me on those terms.  It terrifies me to think I’ll grow old alone – and as another birthday is looming a little over a week away…that fear feels ever more realized.  So shut up already….

Really, I’m so tired of living with fear, anger, and regret.  That is soooo unhealthy.  I’ve wimped out on my life a million times over and over again.  I can write a good deal and I can talk my way through one idea or motivational moment…I just can’t sustain it when the going gets really tough.  The exhaustion and pain just takes me down.  Which is why I kind of like those hypomanic moments.  I almost live for those times where the energy and ideas come so intensely and easily.  Now is not one of those times.  I’m just so physically and mentally spent.

I feel bad that this entry doesn’t capture the essence of the previous ones.  It is just where I’m at.

~ by the10sdoc on April 8, 2009.

2 Responses to “Misery loves company”

  1. wow.. that’s a great post, i was looking for this, thank you for the information

  2. I live a bipolar woman who has been rejected from all of her family since diagnosed. Most of her family has since died. Her grandon she and her ex raised took sides with her ex and has denounced her because of her mood swings. I am all she has left but she leaves me out of her life because her depression is so severe to the on going divorce that she doesn’t want it to effect me. Which I might add involves enough money to keep her going. She has been disabled from this disorder for over 15 years and cannot work. She is very intelligent but the depression keeps her from functioning even daily activities. She complains she has no purpose on this earth. Says she has no friends and all she has is me. I deal with this on a daily basis. Her mood swings directed at me. Her depression and lack of motivation to do anything about anything. Her bed is her home. I know there are other bipolars as listed above that have made some steps to beat this disease but her medicatiions are not enough during these hard times. I sometimes feel like giving up on this relationship but I have read so much about this disorder that I am giving it the time i think it deserves. I hope after her divorce is final and she gets her settlement she will be happier but right now I am believing this won’t come true. Until then I will give her all the support I can. Thank, post back.

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